nuruljannah:)

-Sunday, February 24, 2008Y

okay. today?
i found out the chemistry between me and my father.
i used to hate my father alot.
he used to take whatever money i have or he can find in my room.
i got fed-up and started lying.
today, he came into my room and explained everything..
then, i felt it. just it.. i don't know what 'it' is. but i felt it.
i was so sad la. i almost cried. then he said that, he'll try t get me
a drumset, a guitar and a laptop.
all of which i have always wanted.
but i told him. the laptop, let me work it out on my own.
i'll save for it. like how i did for my camera and psp.
then he said, of course if i have money, you'll get everything.
then, it was obvious, we we're lagging behind in terms of finance.
i realised then that i fell into severe peer pressure.
all of my friends are those that are too well off.
parents' salary are above 6-7k and stuff.
mine is hardly 1k.. imagine paying for everything.
and in sch, i've been owing people money.
i'm sure t pay them someday. when i save enough.
i then realised that all in all, i owe people about 120 bucks?
yeapp. 100 for the stick and 20 for the food i was too greedy for..
omg! why didn't you make me realise at that point of time god?
now, i regretted borrowing money and i'm in trouble cause i can't pay them in time..!
omg omg omg..! i just h0pe you'll bless my family and grant us peace, god..
that's all i'm asking for. i'll promise t do what i'm on earth for.
just give my parents the best of health and also for my brother.
i don't have t be healthy cause it's hard t maintain me.
just make sure they are at the healthiest stage now, and forever.

9:18 PM,Y
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