nuruljannah:)

-Thursday, April 10, 2008Y

what happened to the stand by me and i'll stand by you thing? you don't know what i've been through all this while and then, you dare to still accuse me of the ridiculous? ytvubg is wrong with you? you don't know how much i suffer thinking about you. missing you. yet, this is what i get back in return? OMG! how much more do you want to hurt me? it's not my fault i'm sick everywhere right? i didn't ask for it! it's nobody's fault. not even my creator! OMG! bug off luh!

okay. school was as usual. english CA today. geog CA today also.! okay.. well, that's over! i bet i'm gonna fail both things! what he mean by degil? eh, that's just my handwriting. walao! okay luh. anyway, yesterday's weather was so hot! therefore my migraine attacked severely. it's not my fault right? i decided not to go floorball and, well, got into TROUBLE for that! what the hell! GOSH! why aren't everyone like you! just so kind and understanding! omg! i feel like this world is gonna end soon. i mean, like, you are not my everything luh. but you just make my days go down low. i've been going through this enough! i just wanna drop out of school! maybe i just take one subject for o levels. err. GEE! maybe none. i suck at them all! i wanna drop out of school! it's just creating more effing trouble! omg! school is like the most hardest difficulty my parents are like facing! i don't care if i'm smart or not luh. as long as i can work and earn money to help my parents right? they need the money more than me. health is more important than education right? i've been having severe migraine attacks these days. and, it's like sorta affecting my stupid studies! GEE! so irritating! and, my back aches are coming back very often now. my chest is suddenly pain and, my stomach never stops hurting! OMG! i should just die right? i mean like, i'd rather die than waste my parent's money on health, education and all the rubbish things happening! OMG! if i stop school, i can proceed on in life with talent. it's more interesting than all those subjects i learn in school. furthermore, they don't encourage student who are musically inclined t pursue their passion of music! they, banned band! for no particular reason! just because we weren't productive! and, that's because the school didn't want us to have an INSTRUCTOR! gee! they just don't understand us do they? it's so so effing irritating! omg! NO! life is just too unfair already. if i cannot take it, i just have to tell my parents to stop depending on me, and start depending on my brother. if we're both hopeless, go and adopt some smart child that can actually bring pride to our family! i just can't take these stressful life anymore! don't wait till i commit suicide yeah? it's really taking me over! especially them! those effing idiots! GEE!

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