nuruljannah:)

-Monday, July 7, 2008Y

gdmorning starshine, the earth says hello.

hey, i'm like so weak these days. and bored, and it doesn't affect you i know! hah! omg! no one is like reading my blog luh! ohgosh, maybe they read but like neh tag. that's so shit luh! what the hell! hah! this suddenly came across my mind. you know, like the hardest 4-letter word that one can say is 'LOVE'. and, when they say it, they don't actually mean it. don't you agree? and, oh gosh, this post might be a long one, as i have since been posting.

hmph, life hasn't turned quite the way i wanted to be.. like you know, in all aspects. i thought like studies are like gonna improve and i've tried. but, it's not working out. and like music, it's like almost taking over my life. i mean, it's like my passion and all and some people makes me feel guilty that music is what i like. like, what.. omg! i also don't know. like, you know, we all got our talents but, they're not all the same right? i mean like, doesn't mean one is good at biology, the other MUST be too. i mean, talents are not all in the same areas. and, SOME people still cannot understand that particular fact. like, GAH! idk how to explain myself! and like you know, some people take for granted everything they have and like don't know how to share it. i mean like, idk what i'm talking about luh, shit! it's like i'm reflecting on all the different events that like happened in my life luh. GAH! you know when something is troubling me and i just can't bear it, it's like i don't know who to share it with. some people just like won't believe that sort of thing.. and like i still NEED you by my side. maybe just to help me dry the tears that i've cried. and like again, idk what shit i talking. HAH! die die die! music! anyone willing to tutor me mainly on music? cause, i think i need that. to have a career, i need music. cause like my ambition is to like be a music director or something. i thought i wanted to be a pilot. but, when i tell everyone that, their response, "huh? you can meh? cannot wear specs one leh.." so demoralising i tell you! therefore next ambition, something to do with music. no one can critisize me on that right? it's like those buggers..! GAH!

and to tell you the revealing truth! I MISS FAZLI! there's no way we can contact him again! he's outta reach. no one knows where he is now..! GAH! how how how? he used to motivate me in math. but, now he's gone! and, like with the life i'm leading now, it's impossible to excel ever again!

3:44 AM,Y
LOVING.MUSIC